I will promise myself I won't care...

We're officially done...at least for now. He messaged me a couple minutes ago and gave me some crap story about how he loves his girlfriend and he really wants to make it work with her this time around. According to him, I make it difficult for him to stay faithful, therefore we can't continue to be friends. It's amazing how I don't care anymore. If he had said this to me a month ago, I would have been devastated. I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me for me and I no longer need that childish male to make me feel good about myself. Looking back, I don't understand what I liked/loved so much about him. Basically, I liked the attention he gave me because to be honest he only started liking me because of purely physical reasons. His exact words were, "You got fine. You've always been pretty, but now you're sexy." Translation: You were cute but not attractive enough to be worth my time. I should have seen through him right then but I'm a sucker for flattery and attention. I don't want to spend anymore time writing about him because as of now that situation is over and I'd like to keep it that way. I dedicated a lot of time and energy to what I thought was true love, but I don't regret it. I've learned a lot these past months and now I realize that he never really loved me...because love doesn't hurt that badly. Eh, at least I got a few good songs out of this disaster.

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March Wishlist

Due to the recent death of my Chi, I've been on the hunt for a new hair straightener. After spending an hour researching straighteners and checking out reviews, I've decided that the Sedu needs to be put on my wishlist. Speaking of hair, I've been debating about getting a new haircut. Summer is almost here and I'm thinking about a short bob or at least a shoulder length cut. My long hair is becoming such a hassle.

New Year, New Me

I'm so excited for 2009. Great things happened in 2008-I graduated from high school, started college, made amazing friends, and dropped the zeros-and I know 2009 is going to be so much better. I'm ready to forget about all the not so good things that happened last year. Last year I was all about having fun, but this year I'm going to focus on obtaining my goals and being the best person that I can be. School and my future career is going to be my main priority. I don't bother with resolutions because I never keep them and then I get disappointed in myself. I'd rather call them goals because that seems to be such a lighter word. These are my main GOALS for 2009.

-Write in my journal everyday
-Focus on school
-Stop obsessing over boys
-Continue exercising everyday
-Make new friends
-Stop buying unnecessary clothes

A change is coming...

After months of wearing "Vote" and "Barack the Vote" shirts and hoodies, it's all over. Words cannot express how I feel right now. Just the fact that I had the opportunity to be a part of this incredible change in America is just...gosh. This election brought so many people of different races and backgrounds together. Today during a rally, when Obama was announced as the next president, the girl next to me grabbed me and hugged me. It was just one of those moments where everyone came together and I'm going to remember it for the rest of my life.

Confessions of a hair junkie...

I'm very experimental when it comes to my hair. I'm also a product junkie which has a negative effect on my bank account. When I was younger, people would always comment on my long beautiful hair. Over the years I've become obsessed with having great hair. I've dyed my hair so many times I'm surprised it hasn't given up on me and decided to fall out. I don't even want to think about the various haircuts I've had. I'm actually going through a bad hair cycle right now. About three weeks ago I got this really cute bob and red tints. It looked great but now it's growing out and the front is growing faster than the back. Now I'm stuck with a jacked up Sasuke hair style. Not a good look. I unfortunately also have to straighten my hair everyday because it doesn't look cute curly at it's current length. So now I'm determined to grow my hair back out so I can go back to rocking my big, curly hair.

It's love baby, let's make it hurt

If falling in love is so great, why does it hurt so much? Why is it that the person I'm in love with is the one boy I shouldn't be with? I've unforunately given him enough of me to break my heart, which he does every chance he gets. I don't understand him at all. He says he loves me, but I feel like he only loves/likes me when it's convenient. I'm supposed to be his number one, so why does he keep putting this other girl before me? I'm the girl who receives the constant texts and declarations of love, but in the end she's the one he always runs back to. I've told myself so many times that I'm going to get over him and move on, but it's easier said than done. Everytime I think we're through he says/does something to make me want him all over again. Who am I fooling...I'll never say no to him.